Why didn't I like them? The reasons are usually varied and dependent on my mood, the situation, or both. They were annoying. They were kindof a jerk. We seemingly didn't have enough in common. They talked too much (see: annoying). Or I was jealous of them.
To be fair, I know people have had negative first impressions of me as well. My friend Julia originally thought I was a bitch because I didn't talk to her, "always looked perfect," and was always surrounded by my group of friends. Eventually, she realized that I was just shy and she become a very dear friend and confidante.
While I generally remember my first impressions of people, first memories are an entirely different thing. First memories usually don't stick around for very long. I don't remember the first time I saw my ex-husband. I don't remember the first time I saw most of my friends, or my past crushes. First memories, for me, need to be something more vivid and important or inspiring in order to last. For example, I still remember the first time I saw Michelle Mynx perform and knew that I wanted to learn how to pole dance.
Last night, I told Mark my very first memory of him.
Please, don't expect some sort of adorable "meet-cute." This is not a Hollywood movie. Also, it in no way qualifies as vivid, important, or inspiring, really. But it is something I've never forgotten (even if he did).
It was thirteen years ago, when I was that awkward young eighteen-year-old joining the community theatre cast of Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat. (I've referenced this in a prior ridiculously sappy blog, for those just joining us.)
I was standing upstairs at the Miner's Theatre for the very first time with my friend Anna, who had drug me along to this thing in the first place, and the director was explaining that we (these two young girls) were going to be playing some of Joseph's brothers since there was a general shortage of male actors.
In the corner of the room were a bunch of large balls that were painted to look like planets. Upon hearing the announcement that the production had gained some "Undercover Brothers" (as we came to be known), Mark turned around, picked up two of these planets and, holding them in front of him at waist level, announced, "Here, these should help!" before bursting into the uncontrollable laugh that I've come to know so well over the years.
And that was how I met the love of my life. With a joke about balls.
My first impression, therefore, probably should have been abject horror, or at least embarrassed amusement. It should definitely not have been the real-life equivalent of the emoji with hearts for eyes.
I don't know if it was the unselfconscious laughter, the terrible humor, or the big... er, planets, but I was instantly smitten.
Mark frequently tells me I'm crazy for being in love with him. To be honest, after reviewing the above evidence, he may have a point.
But this time? I'm sticking with my first impression.